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Sometimes you just gotta talk it out. [Closed]

Who: Yuuna, Feliks, Waver

Where: Just outside Union

What: A conversation that needs to happen

When: September, pre-event.

[It’d been ages since they’d last talked. Since the incident with the frogs. Not a lot had really happened, but it was weird around Feliks now, Yuuna thought. And quite frankly, she was a little tired of not knowing where they stood. So, she resolved to take the next opportunity she had to talk to him. Regardless of what was going on, she was going to talk to him.

Of course, that would be the time she’d called Waver up to do a little analysis of her newfound abilities. But he was late, presumably dealing with the trouble that was that nosy mushroom. Still, she refused to put it off any longer and hopefully Waver won’t be walking into another argument.

So, Yuuna waves and jogs over to Feliks as he prepares to head back through the gate. Strands of her hair are standing a bit on end, the weather playing havoc with her poor control over her lightning, but other than that? She looks a bit nervous.]

Uh, Hey. Feliks? You got a minute?

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[When Feliks is out of town, it's always for days at a stretch, sometimes even weeks. When he comes back, he's always visibly exhausted. Though he's coming around more often than he used to and staying longer, that hasn't changed.]

[He's walking next to one of his Rapidash, a hand on his mane for a sort of mutual support; his fingers bury a little further into the Pokemon's fur when he hears Yuuna's voice, and he takes half a step backwards towards the gate. He doesn't bolt, but it sort of looks like a near thing -- every inch of his body language looks like he's poised on the verge of fight or flight and sort of leaning towards the latter.]

[Fighting to protect her is one thing, but what is he supposed to say to her? He doesn't have enough hate in him to really stay angry long at someone who's never meant to hurt him, but every time he thinks he's getting over it, the word dead hits him in the gut again, and the only thing he can think to do in self-defense is to reject it, by any means necessary.]

Oh! Um... Yuuna. Hi. I'm, uh... I'm late for... tea, actually? With... some people?

[Gods, he needs to learn to lie.]

[Yuuna maneuvers in front of him, her whole body moving quickly, placing herself in his path. She can tell he's lying. He's being ridiculous, and they need to talk. Period. She's joined by Geshiko, the robed Toxicroak bowing deeply to her one time rescuer.]

Feliks. Please, we really need to talk. To...decide if we are talking again. It's been months.

[Her fingers crackle with electricity, the emotions warring inside her creating a storm in her heart.]

Please?

[Feliks grimaces a little, glancing at her fingers. Will she try to stop him, if he tries to run?]

[He guesses it's a bit of a stupid thing to physically flee from, but that doesn't quite take away the urge.]

...What is there to talk about?

About us? About where we stand?

[The energy dissipates quickly, but her intensity doesn't.]

Are we going to keep running from each other forever? We're friends...

We were. But we're not gonna be if you're going to keep trying to hold me back.

[She knows what she did. She knows what she said, all those months ago, that cut to the heart of him so deeply.]

Then why did you help us? When did that stop?!

[Geshiko steps forward now, croaking and setting a hand on Yuuna's shoulder to keep her back. Feliks had been hurtful too...and she could sense when her boss was getting upset. Best not to piss of the Destroyer.]

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[Feliks all but visibly flinches, unable to look at her.]

I... I owed you. For when you saved me before. That's all!

[...Or maybe he's too decent a person to abandon someone in need, but somehow, that's harder to admit when his pride is still stinging and grief is like a siren in his head.]

Yuunaaaa~~~~~~~~~

[He had gotten lost. He hadn't wanted to admit that he had gotten lost, but tracking down Orpheus had gotten him turned around outside of the city once again... and he only hoped that Yuuna would forgive him for arriving late to their meeting place.

Dashing through the foliage, Foongus in hand, Waver all but tripped over his own feet as he arrived--

And stared in dumbfounded silence at the two people who he liked to think of as friends. The tension in the air was palpable, even to a Psychic-type who didn't specialize in reading thoughts or emotions. Straightening his stance, he pulled the little Foongus closer to his person in his uncertainty.]

Yuuna? Feliks? What...what is going on here?

Edited 2015-09-23 02:35 (UTC)

You didn't. I told you be-

[And she's cut off by the sound of footsteps. Oh...geez, Waver! Crap! He was here already. She'd figured he'd be a lot later!]

We're...discussing...some things, Waver. Or...we were.

[Damn it... Damn it, he was trying to keep all of this stuff under wraps around Waver! Was it too much, to want one friend who didn't have to know about this whole mess?]

[Feliks gritted his teeth, hands curling slightly. Somehow, it stung a little bit that Yuuna seemed willing to resign herself to the conversation being over so quickly. Like he wasn't worth fighting for -- but was anyone, to her? Fai wasn't.]

...Nothing. We weren't talking about anything!

[Waver passed his gaze between the two of them, brows furrowing in thought while he studied the faces of his two friends.]

....There's certainly a whole lot of 'nothing' to be upset about in the woods this afternoon, [he said finally, and he set the little Foongus up on his shoulder to relax while he crossed his arms stubbornly over his chest.

Secrets were things best left in Sanctuary, not in Union. And, for someone as irritatingly bubbly as Feliks to be upset, the situation had to be quite grave.]

[It wasn't that she wasn't wanting to go on. But she didn't want to have this conversation in front of Waver. He really didn't. It wasn't like he was involved, and half the damn city knew they were on the outs.

She puts a fist on her hip and turns to Waver, looking down at him and taking a deep breath.

Fuck it. Waver wasn't the sort to let these things lie. Why not. Why not just tell him.]

Feliks has been refusing to talk to me for months. I was trying to talk to him again, and...here we are. Not talking again.

[Feliks bristles, lashing out without time for thought.]

Oh, yeah, sure. Make it sound like it was all my fault! Like you didn't do anything!

[...Right, but does he really even want Waver to know what she did? He'd have to know about the context, for that.]

...Don't you dare tell him any more, Yuuna. He doesn't... he doesn't have to know about it!

--Don't talk about me like I'm not here.

[The snappish reply was automatic. For the first time since entering Union, he felt like an outsider...and he didn't like that.]

What don't I have to know about, Feliks? And why are you refusing to talk to Yuuna?

[Yuuna bristled right back, shooting Feliks a look. Well now she was going to tell Waver, whether Feliks liked it or not.]

Feliks's boyfriend disappeared a year ago. Vanished into the wilderness.

[Her anger wilts a little and she sags forward.]

We looked for him for months. The Rangers, I mean. But after months, after a bad winter and a nasty late spring and still no sign of him? I gave up.

[She looks at Feliks now, stepping clear of him and setting a hand on Geshiko's head.]

I was helping Feliks anyway, making sure he had food. But when summer started and there was still nothing? I...said that he was probably dead. I tried being gentle, but he just wouldn't hear it. I lost my temper when he got angry, and since then...we have barely said ten words to one another. I still look for Fai every time I go out, but I still have no leads. And it's been more than a year.

It's not that I don't care. But...Waver, you know me. Feliks has been nearly killing himself for a year now...and I was worried.

[Even back during the negotiations with Sanctuary, Waver has never seen Feliks quite this angry.]

Yuuna? Shut up.

Waver, just... don't listen to her. I'm fine, ok? I don't need any more people worrying about me!

[They only seem to hurt him when they do, anyway.]

[The pain and hurt was easily recognizeable in Feliks' eyes. It was the same look Waver had caught before-- a flash here or there when conversations made a certain turn-- but he had always let it go before. Whatever it was that had happened, Waver was going to respect Feliks' wish to not speak of it.

He wasn't aware of how widespread this information was, and Yuuna's words...]

...You don't look very fine right now, [he intoned, nodding gratefully at Yuuna for explaining. It was a terrible situation, one that he couldn't even imagine, but staying stuck in the same psychological place for so long was far from healthy.

It needed to stop.]

All that you look like you're doing is pushing people away and making it harder to live in a nosey city like this. Do you think that this is the kind of life that he'd want for you?

[The identity of who 'he' was should be apparent to anyone who knew more of the situation than Waver did.]

Edited 2015-09-23 04:10 (UTC)

No.

[It's all she says to Feliks, her voice flat and hard as iron. She was angry too, in a different way. Tired of seeing someone she cared about running himself into the ground, letting something run roughshod over him. There was a time for moving on, for healing, and he was just throwing away his life on something she's not sure could ever happen again.

And even if Fai did return who's to say he'd remember? That happened as often as not...]

He's not fine, Waver. Hell, he wasn't eating until I had his Pokemon in the habitat start carrying it out to him. And I've found him injured and sick in the wilderness at least once. Twice if you count the incident with the Snorlax.

I've just been trying to help. That's what friends do.

Edited 2015-09-23 04:25 (UTC)

Then we're not friends. What part of "I don't want your help" don't you get? I don't need anyone acting like they're going to save me!

And I swear by every god, the next person I hear go on about "what he'd want for you" as if they give one miserable, twitching Rattata's tail about him...!

[Waver listened to the harsh words in silence, counting his breaths while he considered the tempo and cadence in Feliks' tone, his own anger flaring with every foolhardy exclamation. Enough was enough, he decided. Even if it wasn't his place to say.

Moving without thinking, Waver closed the distance between them in a single step-- and he sharply backhanded Feliks across the cheek.

Have you even bothered listening to the words you're saying, you self-absorbed idiot!?

[He was yelling now, and he didn't care. Friends were a rare commodity for him, and he wasn't about to let go of one so quickly.]

Of course everyone's worried about you. You're the most well known and popular person in the city! And this isn't even about your vanished boyfriend, it's about you. I know how much this sort of thing hurts, but now you're just hurting yourself!

[That reaction straight up stuns Yuuna. Waver...just slapped someone?

Holy shit...this was going to go in a whole different direction than she'd thought, so she remains silent, waiting...]

[Feliks is just as stunned as Yuuna, if not substantially more so. His fists clench with the instinctive urge to defend himself, but it's Waver, so he holds himself back, just this once. It's hard to tell at this point if it's fury or despair making his eyes water.]

It's not about me! I'm not the one who's lost and everyone's given up on them!

[They were allowed to be as stunned as they wanted-- but Waver was on a roll.]

You are lost!

[His fists clenched by his sides as well, and his eyes flashed in rage.]

You're just so lost that you can't see it, and we can only worry about what's in front of us today. Those who knew your boyfriend undoubtedly miss him too, but you can't worry about things that you can't control!

I'm right here.

I'm not gonna give up because of stupid things like that! I don't care about the odds --

[He spits the word out like it's poison, like it's the vilest pejorative he can think of.]

-- I'm not about to throw in the towel and turn my back on him, or Yuui, either! You can't control anything if you're not willing to try!

[He's about to panic. He might be panicking already? He can feel it, welling up in his chest, swelling like a balloon and making everything in him feel too crowded, too tight, ready to burst at any moment.]

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