ohana means family [closed]

[bornofstone]

Who: Fili and Kili
What: Going into the caves was a massive mistake and now Fili's an emotional mess
When: July 24

Not only had been braving the caves a step in the completely wrong direction, the emotional trauma it had caused had left Fili shaking and unusually clingy. It had taken quite the effort for Thorin to convince him that it wasn't real and to leave the body that looked, felt, and smelled like Kili behind. He couldn't get his mother's words out of his head, how he'd abandoned his brother before, that he was a horrible brother that couldn't take care of his family...

It may not have been real, but Fili's having a hard time shaking the doubt and unease. Coming home to be welcomed by Fleur and Keil helps, but it's not enough to throw it off completely. Claiming he wants an early night's sleep, Fili manages to slip off on his own and wait in Kili's room, staring at a wall and hugging Kili's pillow.

It's harder to convince himself that the body wasn't really his brother's when Kili is still nowhere to be found.

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[youngestone]

After hearing that his family had gone underground looking for him, Kili felt awful--especially once he saw people fresh from down there. What had Thorin and Fili seen? Were they okay?

Needless to say, he went home to wait for him--and of course they'd get back after he stepped out to go buy dinner from one of the food stalls nearby. He goes up to his room to wait, stopping when he sees Fili.

"I'm a dumbass."

[bornofstone]

"Kili--"

Fili surges to his feet as soon as he sees his brother, crossing the room in two quick steps to pull him into a tight hug. This is him, the real Kili, alive and breathing and sheepish, smelling like he hasn't taken a bath in at least a week and Fili can't even bring himself to care because it's Kili.

Not that Fili smells (or looks) like a basket of roses. He hasn't bathed yet after his week underground, and there's dust and dirt so thick in his hair it's nearly changed the color. Not to mention the dried blood on his clothes and hands. Some of it flakes off his cheek and falls and Fili doesn't care.

He's crying again, he realizes, quiet but enough to make him shake and press his face into Kili's shoulder.

[youngestone]

Something happened down there. Something Not Right.

Kili lets the bag with dinner fall to the floor and clings to his brother. He doesn't know what went on, but he knows it was bad.

"Sorry for running off again, Fee," he murmurs. "You can kick me if you want."

[bornofstone]

Fili lets out a choked laugh at that and shakes his head, fingers tightening in Kili's shirt. "I'm just glad you're safe, you dumbass." It's muffled, but the relief is clear.

[youngestone]

"Do I want to know what you saw down there? I'm hearing horror stories."

[bornofstone]

Fili shudders, shaking his head. "It...it was bad. I don't think I would have gotten out if Thorin weren't there."

[youngestone]

"Got it." He pulls away and grabs the bag. "I have dinner--Union style kebobs. Hungry?"

[bornofstone]

"I could eat." He hasn't had anything since before he went down into the caves. He'd brought some food, but he couldn't stomach anything then.

"Hey, Kili?"

[youngestone]

"Yeah?" He knows they should wash up, but he doesn't feel like it. Instead, Kili just hands his brother some kebobs.

[bornofstone]

"Would it...be alright if I crashed with you tonight?" He takes it with a murmur of thanks, sitting down on the bed. "I...want to be around you, if you don't mind."

[youngestone]

Kili snorts and flops down next to Fili. "Of course you can. You're getting the floor, though. And you have to share with Kuna, and she evolved."

What had happened down there?

[bornofstone]

"I don't mind." Fili chuckles. "Kuna's a sweetheart. When did she evolve?"

He's trying to keep his mind off it.

[youngestone]

"Last week, just before I left. She's much better for riding now!" He grins. "Oh, hey, you haven't met Bahiri yet. Wanna meet her?"

[bornofstone]

"Sure." He shrugs, realizing as he eats that he's starved. How long was he even in the caves...?

[youngestone]

No sooner does Fili say "sure" then a little Ralts walks in, looking a bit...chill. She looks at Fili before floating off. When she returns, it's with Raz and washcloths. Kili laughs.

"I think they think we're filthy."

[bornofstone]

Fili is a bit surprised when the Ralts wanders off, glancing at Kili in confusion. But when she returns with washcloths, that makes more sense.

"They're not wrong. Hi Raz." He grins at the 'Mon.

[youngestone]

Raz just shakes her head and starts attacking the boys with washcloths, lecturing Fili on not being clean. Kili rolls his eyes.

"She knows I'm Rock type, right?"

[bornofstone]

"I was sort of trapped underground for a while." Fili huffs at Raz before glancing at Kili. "...How long was I gone, anyway?"

[youngestone]

He shrugs. "A week, maybe? I don't know for sure, I didn't come home until Hayato told me you guys were down there."

[bornofstone]

Fili shudders a bit. "I guess that explains a lot... Though it is strange that you didn't start decomposing. I should have seen that." He shakes his head, not even realizing he's said something strange. "Ugh."

[youngestone]

He stares. "Why's it weird I wasn't decomposing?"

[bornofstone]

Fili shakes his head suddenly, not wanting to worry his brother. "Huh? No, sorry, I'm just...thinking out loud again. I'm tired."

He doesn't even have to fake the yawn that comes after his words.

[youngestone]

"Fili, tell me."

[bornofstone]

"There's nothing to tell, Kili." He doesn't meet his eyes, a sure sign he's lying.

[youngestone]

Already in a bad mood, Kili huffs and looks away himself.

"Sure, don't tell me. I'm just the annoying baby of the family anyway, can't do anything right, no one ever wants to tell me shit."