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bravenewworld2015-01-19 04:39 pm
realmenknitplushies) wrote in bravenewworld2015-01-19 04:39 pm
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11: action
Who: Kanji and anyone who encounters him!
Where: The forest, the habitat
When: 1/19
What: A thoughtful Kanji deals with a surprise when he's out for a birthday walk - and has to deal with the consequences of his choice.
[1: Scorched Forest/Hot Springs]
Kanji's decided to spend his birthday out and about: he's taking a stroll through the Scorched Forest at the moment, looking around at the damaged scenery. A year ago, he'd never even set eyes on it. And yet now - it seems so plain, so trivial.
Everything he knows has changed. He's done some good work too, he knows: but he still feels like the same person he was before he even knew he was Enlightened. Still feels like the same person, scrapping to prove his strength in pointless ways and throwing himself into things that are just taking him further from it.
His friends have all changed, they're all making progress - what does he have to show but a few marks and a cute little design portfolio? That's not strength. He's not sure what it is - but it's not what he wants out of life.
Distracted, he hardly notices the Growlithe running out of the entrance to the springs, and almost trips over it. With a yelp, the little canine goes on the attack: Kanji blasts it away with a brief shock almost on instinct, heart rate leaping for a second as it skitters away. ... Dammit. Why did he have to scare the cute one?
Still. It's a fight, and the brief adrenalin rush -
There's a familiar glow starting to surge under his skin. He's seen it before. He knows what it means. And yet...
Now? Over that?
Something so trivial. He can't accept it. It's not right. He'd pushed himself to the limit the first time he'd evolved - for it to be something so meaningless, something that would never prove his strength -
He clenches hands that are trying to change, looks at arms that are trying to shift and the glowing aura that's suggesting what he could become-
I can't lie to myself. I'm not strong enough for this. I can't... not yet...
Pushing his willpower against the sheer rush of power - he closes his eyes. Focuses.
The light fades away, leaving the same old Kanji standing there. Same old figure, same old markings, same old pointed ears. Nothing changed.
His heart stops pounding and he stares.
"Did I... did I seriously..."
[2: Habitat]
Kanji's up in the habitat regularly. After all, with a group of Pokémon like his, he's got to find time to spend with them, and right now, he could use the company. Today, he's in the Flying-type friendly parts of the structure. Literally very much out of his element, but still...
His Swellow and Altaria are hanging around nearby, but his Pidgey's sitting on his lap as he strokes her feathers.
"...I guess I know how ya feel," he whispers, looking at her, a smile on his face. "When we're ready, right?"
She coos back - he laughs, stretching out watching the others circle overhead.
Where: The forest, the habitat
When: 1/19
What: A thoughtful Kanji deals with a surprise when he's out for a birthday walk - and has to deal with the consequences of his choice.
[1: Scorched Forest/Hot Springs]
Kanji's decided to spend his birthday out and about: he's taking a stroll through the Scorched Forest at the moment, looking around at the damaged scenery. A year ago, he'd never even set eyes on it. And yet now - it seems so plain, so trivial.
Everything he knows has changed. He's done some good work too, he knows: but he still feels like the same person he was before he even knew he was Enlightened. Still feels like the same person, scrapping to prove his strength in pointless ways and throwing himself into things that are just taking him further from it.
His friends have all changed, they're all making progress - what does he have to show but a few marks and a cute little design portfolio? That's not strength. He's not sure what it is - but it's not what he wants out of life.
Distracted, he hardly notices the Growlithe running out of the entrance to the springs, and almost trips over it. With a yelp, the little canine goes on the attack: Kanji blasts it away with a brief shock almost on instinct, heart rate leaping for a second as it skitters away. ... Dammit. Why did he have to scare the cute one?
Still. It's a fight, and the brief adrenalin rush -
There's a familiar glow starting to surge under his skin. He's seen it before. He knows what it means. And yet...
Now? Over that?
Something so trivial. He can't accept it. It's not right. He'd pushed himself to the limit the first time he'd evolved - for it to be something so meaningless, something that would never prove his strength -
He clenches hands that are trying to change, looks at arms that are trying to shift and the glowing aura that's suggesting what he could become-
I can't lie to myself. I'm not strong enough for this. I can't... not yet...
Pushing his willpower against the sheer rush of power - he closes his eyes. Focuses.
The light fades away, leaving the same old Kanji standing there. Same old figure, same old markings, same old pointed ears. Nothing changed.
His heart stops pounding and he stares.
"Did I... did I seriously..."
[2: Habitat]
Kanji's up in the habitat regularly. After all, with a group of Pokémon like his, he's got to find time to spend with them, and right now, he could use the company. Today, he's in the Flying-type friendly parts of the structure. Literally very much out of his element, but still...
His Swellow and Altaria are hanging around nearby, but his Pidgey's sitting on his lap as he strokes her feathers.
"...I guess I know how ya feel," he whispers, looking at her, a smile on his face. "When we're ready, right?"
She coos back - he laughs, stretching out watching the others circle overhead.
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"I was just ... thinkin' about how I've been doin' as a trainer." Seems like a safe enough place to start, at least.
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"Are you unsatisfied with something, or...?"
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"Yeah. I am." With himself. But how does he even say that? The last thing he wants to seem is weak in front of Rise...
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"I wanna know what bein' strong means. I wanna know how strong I am."
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"You mean something besides the obvious, then," she concludes. "I'm probably not much help there. I'm not someone who's strong on my own in any kinda way, you know?"
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"Toyo hits like a little kid, but she's, like, invincible, for example. And Inari's a tiny girl who can wreck things with fire. And...heh, all my philosophy comes from watching my Pokémon now," she observes.
"But I mean...I think you're strong," she admits. "And not just because you can pound stuff or electrocute it or whatever. More like because I've never seen you quit at anything."
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Rise carefully digs her foot into the ground a bit and gives Kanji a pat on the shoulder. "Feel any better?"
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