[As she comes back and sits down, she actually has a response to that.]

Ya never had ta, even as a friend.

[But she's going to take a drink at the question. She really just had not figured it out..Even if deep inside she wanted to stop running and stay in one place.]

..I really don't know.. I..I'm thinkin' about it. I know what I want ta do...just dunno how I wanna deal with it.