[That actually makes Fai wince visibly, both hurt and shock registering on his face before he curls up a bit. That might not have been the most sensitive thing to say, Feliks.]

I guess. But I... don't want to think about it like that. I want them to love me for me, underneath all the stupid things they want for me. I want to believe that they think they're doing it for my own good. I don't want them to think I'd be better if I always did what they said.

[His voice is swaying pretty heavily at the end there. Jadwiga, this might be a good time to give Feliks a small kick.]