I just mean that's how they see it. And they think I should see it that way too. As in, I shouldn't think so much about what it means to me, because that's selfish.

[And he doesn't believe that's true - except he does, at the same time. It's confusing to have two different parts of him saying different things, especially when a third part just seems to want to remind him how nice Feliks smells.]

Mostly I was afraid that I was going to humiliate her by saying I didn't want her. Turns out she was worrying about the same thing. Silly, right?