[Duty has been guiding him since he was young. A duty to Union, to his family, to his name: it shaped who he was more than most men his age, colored his world in black and white. It was never an easy burden to bear, but he would do it.
He has to do it for all of them.
It's not that Ishimaru doesn't place considerable importance on passion, or emotions in general. It's just that expressing his own struggles was never easy to begin with, and he couldn't bear to pointlessly go on and on to someone who would hardly be interested to begin with. For the longest time, he'd wanted a friend to confide in like that. He'd wanted a friend to be by his side through thick and thin, to share good times and bad, a friend who he wouldn't feel horribly selfish confiding in.
He doesn't know if that's normal for someone his age, so he bottles that up too.
You can only bottle so much up for so long before something starts to leak out. Maybe it already was, given how prone he is to spontaneous bursts of crying, but this is deeper than that.]
...good afternoon, Fey-kun!
[He tries to force a smile, but it's obviously half-hearted and comes with a short sigh.]
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He has to do it for all of them.
It's not that Ishimaru doesn't place considerable importance on passion, or emotions in general. It's just that expressing his own struggles was never easy to begin with, and he couldn't bear to pointlessly go on and on to someone who would hardly be interested to begin with. For the longest time, he'd wanted a friend to confide in like that. He'd wanted a friend to be by his side through thick and thin, to share good times and bad, a friend who he wouldn't feel horribly selfish confiding in.
He doesn't know if that's normal for someone his age, so he bottles that up too.
You can only bottle so much up for so long before something starts to leak out. Maybe it already was, given how prone he is to spontaneous bursts of crying, but this is deeper than that.]
...good afternoon, Fey-kun!
[He tries to force a smile, but it's obviously half-hearted and comes with a short sigh.]
Have you been faring well lately?